Legion and a little WTF??

So, I went on a little movie date with my soon to be estranged husband a couple nights ago ( I know, I know, we are weird)...and we saw Legion.

Eh.

Wait! First a disclaimer: *I am not religious. I find religion to be contradictory, restrictive, hypocritical, and man made (hence making it pretty hypocritical since most religions seem to be "ruled" by some "laws" made by some higher power)HOWEVER, I do have FAITH. I do believe in a higher power. I just don't like someone telling me how and when and why to believe in that power. OK, so if you do follow a religion that works for you, fine. It doesn't bother me. Just don't try to force it on me OK?*

Wow, oops. Sorry. Back to the movie...anyway, how could I not like a movie about God sending angels to wipe out most of man kind because He's sick of us? I mean really...with scary effects and action and everything! I tend to enjoy anything that questions religion in one way or another. Well, I did like it BUT it had so much potential it did not live up to. First of all, it was only 1hr 40min. These days we are all used to 2hr+ mega movies. There was very little, if any, back story. Nothing was really explained. Here's what happens:

Angel falls to earth like one of the terminators, cuts off his wings.
The Apocalypse begins (chaos, explosions, looting,etc)
Cut to diner with pregnant smoker chick and her country friends
Crazy killer old lady scene
Angel shows up and says, your son will save mankind, God has lost hope.
Everyone is given and gun and they start shooting all the angel-possessed "people"
People die
Baby is born
Angels fight
God rethinks things...
The end

Here's the deal though...we never really find out WHY that baby is so important. I don't think he ever gets a name even. There is no back story as to why God decided to throw up his hands. I mean, I guess that could be obvious given the state of things but still.

It's not one of Dennis Quaid's shining moments for sure.
Verdict: not a total waste of money, but I'd wait for the DVD.

WTF?? Last night soon to be estranged husband confesses to having a dream about "his son". Interesting. In June he shouted something at me during a fight about never wanting kids. "Was I his mother?" Yes. "How old was he, a baby?" No, like four...and I loved him so much and couldn't wait to get home to hang out with him.

WTF?? Now that I'm leaving you are dreaming of children? Happy, loving dreams on top of it? Way to make a girl feel confused.

To Blog or Not to Blog

Hi,

It's me. I'm not dead. Sorry it's been so long...it's just that well, the world is so screwed up and depressing do you really want to read about my also screwed up and depressing life? Probably not. I have what, like 6 followers? (Not that you don't matter *waving* Hi! I love you!) Let's just say, for the last year or so, the only blogging I've done has been OLD SKOOL, in an actual journal...with a pen. Yeah, I know.

I've thought about doing a quick book or movie review but my heart's just not in it. My heart has had quite the year...god, it's been almost a year of this craziness and chaos. Hmmm. Well, when I started this blog it was all YIPPEE!!! NKOTB!!!JOEY!!!EXERCISE!!! and a few "serious" topics, lol. Life was so simple and blond then. I say that because then I was blond and now I'm brunette and I'm different. I've grown up (thought I already was, apparently not) and I'm stronger (more bitter, ugh I want my fairy tales back!).

What the hell, I'm bored at work and reading Twitter and other peoples' blogs, might as well blog and let it all out there....

My marriage is "on hold". It's not over but, well, it's going on hiatus at least. My husband was stupid and did a lot of stupid things. I was oblivious. Oblivious is bad too though. I accept full responsibility for oblivious. You know, I thought, we had a wedding, we took vows in front of a lot of people, we have rings, I'm all set. Um...no. Well, yes, for me that all means exactly what it should but apparently he didn't quite absorb all that into his very soul like I did. And I didn't notice...oops. HE DIDN'T TELL ME THOUGH!

Guys, really...we ARE NOT psychic! I did ask..."is this ok, is that ok, how do you feel about that?" and he always smiled and was supportive. I guess inside he was miserable...for quite a while though. While I was chasing NKOTB and twittering and chatting,etc, he was finding his own distractions. I thought it was just work...it wasn't. YOU WERE SUPPOSED TO TELL ME!

Alas, it's all happened and we've screamed and yelled and walked out and cried and made love, tried(for the record he didn't try very hard) and given up over and over....and it's just time for a break. The love is still there though...at least we have that. So even though I didn't get what I wanted doing everything I was "supposed to do" (the most disappointing phrase in my entire life) now I'm going to do what most people don't have the guts to do...I am "leaving" my old life with the hopes that I'll still want him (and he'll still want me) in my new life.

Really, did you want to hear every depressing detail of my marriage falling apart over the last 10 months? Probably not. Now that it's inevitable and our landlord is getting notice this weekend, I don't see the harm in putting my business out there.

Joe and Myka Part One is coming to and end. It's okay, you should grieve if you feel the need. A lot of people have been and will. I know I know, "not Joe and Myka?! What!!?" Yeah, I feel the same way, sorry. For a while you will have to be okay with just Myka. Or Joe. Not Joe and Myka though, sorry. We are considering a sequel...if we can come up with a happy ending.

So, can you handle a spin off for a season, like "Myka, Princess of Power"? Only, without the cool sword and flying horse... (though I will have Tully, the wet nosed Wiener dog).

What do you think? Will Myka be able to cope on her own? We she go on crazy adventures or will she pine away for Joe, the love of her life? Will she try RED hair for a while? Will Joe desperately try to win Myka back or will he become a nomad? Wait and see...

30

I've been planning on doing a blog about being thirty since well, I turned 30. I'm about to turn 31...yikes...so I guess I better share my thoughts, wisdom, etc soon.

The only thing is, when I planned on writing this blog, I was in a much different place mentally than I am today. This year has probably been one of the most eye opening of my life, to put it gently. I thought I was just going to make this happy list of how great it is to be thirty (mostly) but then life kicked me upside the head and made me grow up.

So here is my big revelation about being thirty; if life/God/the universe hasn't dropped a big bomb on you yet, it's going to. You can't stay in a fairy tale forever (that was me) as much as you want to. Now, I'm not saying lose touch with your childhood self by any means. I wouldn't trade all my NKOTB insanity this past year for anything. I'm just saying, don't assume that just because you are thirty, you've got it all figured out. Don't live in a fog. Keep your eyes open and if they aren't open yet, open them before something makes you do it. That's not fun. At all.

I HAVE gathered some wisdom about being thirty that is a little easier to swallow, so here it is:

1. Teenagers think you are old and you think teenagers are babies. Realizing that you actually contemplated getting naked with another teenager when you were a that young is pretty freaky because you now know, you knew NOTHING.
2. You will no longer be able to tell who is 21 vs. 25 vs. 32. This is because you don't really feel like you've changed much since you were about 25. It blows my mind every time an employee has a birthday and I assume we are close in age...it turns out he's only 22! Which means he was in like 6th grade when I finished high school.
3. You know exactly where all your wrinkles will be when you are 40 because they are now fine lines that will not go away.
4. You realize all that obsessing over your body, how you acted around others, if you were cool or sexy, was a big waste of time in your teens and twenties. You are great just the way you are. If only you could be skinny, eat what you want, be wrinkle free like back then AND feel so confident in yourself! Damn! Youth really is wasted on the young.
5. Everything you liked as a kid is now labeled "classic" or "retro". Teens are watching movie versions of it, wearing it on their Hot Topic tees, acting like they created it all while you think "Are they nuts? We did that 20 years ago!" (boys in neon high tops, really?)
6. By 30, you probably know who your real friends are because they are still around. That is awesome.
7. Women really do reach their sexual peak in their thirties...woo hoo!(If only you could be skinny, eat what you want, be wrinkle free like back then AND feel so confident in yourself! Damn! Youth really is wasted on the young.) I think it's more a mental thing than a biological thing...but that's just my opinion.
8. You start to realize why that "pervy older dude" or "creepy old lady" stared at you when you were younger. It's because you were young and hot and they still felt young and hot. Examples for me, Taylor Lautner and Zac Efron. Hotties...Taylor isn't even 18. Yikes.
9. It's time to make some big decisions and do something about it. You are going to be FORTY in ten years. Does twenty really feel that long ago? No, I didn't think so.
10. Suddenly, it's not totally weird to think someone 35-40 is attractive and a potential bf/gf/spouse. Oh wait...no that still feels weird. Unless it's like Joey Mac or Johnny Depp.
11. You can relate to your parents so much better now.
12. Every time you get carded for alcohol it is the coolest thing EVER. It's even cooler when the liquor store clerk looks at you like you are crazy because he KNOWS there is no way you are old enough to drink and then your license says 1978. Just smile.

30. Embrace it. Be ready for it.

Super quick book and movie review

I know, I know! I'm so lame right now...life is just kinda jacked up and I feel like all I do is talk about it so I've had very little desire to blog about it.

Let's see...a little normalcy has returned so I did finish a book and squeeze a movie in this past week.

The book is really old. I recently finished Firestarter by Stephen King.
Review: Good to great classic King. Read it, you'll like it. I believe there is a movie starring Drew Barrymore as the little girl.

The movie is Harry Potter 6.
Review: You can definitely tell it's the transition story in the series, so in that respect, it's just like the book. I thought the scene transitions were kind of crappy though. I just felt like it jumped from part to part...and it was still 2 1/2 hours. Don't get me wrong, it was a very enjoyable 2 1/2 hours. The hormones of the now grown characters provide a lot of laughs. I felt like they skimped out on the Tom Riddle memories though. I guess they chose to keep us more in the present and only show the vital memories to help us understand the two part finale we have to look forward to. Go see it. It won't be a waste of your money.

The end. Sorry, lame, I know.

Can We Go Back?

I know it's been a long time...my life is well, kind of a mess. Rather than give personal details I'm just going to post the lyrics to "Can We Go Back" from Kelly Clarkson's latest album All I Ever Wanted. I think you are all smart enough to draw your own conclusions. It's almost scary how perfectly this describes what I'm dealing with....

Can We Go Back

You're complicating things
I need some room to breathe
I gotta get back to simplicity
If you want more than this
Then tell me what it is I gotta do
Oh, this is killing me
I need you to see
That somethings gotta change

Can we go back to the way we used to be
Back to the butterflies
Staring deep in your eyes
Can we go back to how we used to be
Cause livin and lovin was easy
We gotta find a way to fool reality
And go back to the way we used to be

When did we mess it up
What happened to love
We had it good
But it wasn't enough
We shouldn't let it fade all the way
Were over thinkin this way too much
I want you next to me
But somethins gotta change

Can we go back to the way we used to be
Back to the butterflies
Starin deep in your eyes
Can we go back to how we used to be
Cause livin and lovin was easy
We gotta find a way to fool reality
And go back to the way we used to be

Oh, can we go back

No it doesn't have to be this hard
And this isn't the way we are
Our love was effortless
Now it's tearin us apart
Oh, I'm getting tired of the fight
We can't pretend that it's alright
I'm slowly losing hope
Baby can we try

Can we go back to the way we used to be
Back to the butterflies
Starin deep in your eyes
Can we go back to how we used to be
Cause livin and lovin was easy
We gotta find a way to fool reality
And go back to the way we used to be

Book Review: The Taking by Dean Koontz

Published 2004, approx 410 pgs, paperback

Just the other day, a coworker comes up to me and goes, "How many books have you read since you started working here?" I answered, "A lot." Honestly, I don't know, but it is quite a few. I'm a receptionist, I'm responsible for guarding the front door (anyone who knows me realizes how comical this is if anyone really dangerous came in) so my days have a very strict schedule. One 15 minute break at 10am and 3pm and a one hour lunch at noon. Because my schedule is so strict, I can rarely get out during my lunches, so I read. I have a pretty large collection of hard cover books at home I still haven't touched so in this past year, I've finally made a dent.

Now that Idol is over, I've been struggling to find something to write about so why not the books I'm reading? If I ever catch up to SYTYCD, maybe I'll cover that too. We'll see.

Anyway, Koontz and I go way back. He was one of the first horror writers I read after discovering Stephen King. I read a lot of his books in high school...not so much as an adult. What brought me back was my recent trip to Florida and the obnoxious amount of flying I had to do. I needed a paperback and I knew I could count on Dean Koontz.

The synopsis starts like this "On the morning that will mark the end of the world they have known, Molly and Niel Sloan awaken to the drumbeat of rain on their roof." Sounds interesting right?

The book is basically about the take over of the planet by an alien species in a 36 hour period. Rather than just showing themselves, the aliens appear to be reforming the planet to suit the life forms of their planet/species. The main characters are Molly and Neil, a childless couple in their late twenties. It follows their discovery of the changes happening to the planet, their struggle to survive, and their desire to help others in their town.

Their are quite a few parallels with the story of Noah's Ark and references to the religion vs. science debate. I always enjoy the combination of these two themes as I consider myself a fence sitter on the issue. Regardless, the book is fast paced and I found myself surprised that little more than a day passes in the story. It's not ground breaking or exceedingly original but it was a good book. Koontz does throw in a good little twist at the end on the science vs. religion topic that wrapped up the story nicely. So, if you are into sci-fi/horror and need a solid read, I recommend giving this a try.

When two loves combine

Books and Joe Mac. Joe Mac and Books. HEAVEN.

Joey started the Let's Get This Foundation and his first "step" as he calls it, is a book drive. Joey needs new books for kids between 0-5 years old. If you donate $10 (buys 5 books) you get a free download of his new song. Anyway, my brain is still mush from Florida so just go here, www.letsgetthis.org for all the details.

Me and my NKOTB friends in sunny (HOT) Florida.
As you can see, none of them are axe murderers and nobody is crazy. We had an awesome time despite our dates standing us up.